And i do realize there is no question-mark there; maybe because i usually insist, perhaps not pourpousfully, to do things eather mine, or, the difficult way. So i guess realizing that, Ok, sure i need help! But, and i also realize__here might be the difficult part again: "There might be hope for me, possibuly because i have actually kicked The Habit before__meny times for streaches of years, and, without going into some care-center; with professionals looking after me. And anyway, becides, once those people knew me, do you think they would ever be lickly to let me out again? and i only wish i was laughing about that !!
Becides, i should be able to lick this problem now once and for all. I mean, i was The Wizard of Oz in my school-play, which was the only class i bothered to attend__durring my last year, and somehow never managed being called-up to the principle's office for lack of attendance. I mean...Here i was in front of every Teacher & Fagilty in the building, meny of whom had me on their attendance-lists__yet never saw me, and my parents didn't even ever get questioned.
Now Don't get me wrong. I'm not apoligizing for my lack of a compleat edgucation,. i mean really !! People who meet me, often coment on my inteligance, and say that i am one of the smartest people they have ever met. i know few people too, who are worth anywhere between 8.5 to 9.5 Billion Dollars, providing this case ever makes it's way into the courts. And i'm quite confidant even you, who-ever, how powerful or small, know nobody who it the eyes of Establishment is not only a vertuial living God, but even the re-incarnated Christian God, Christ Himself !!
Of course you know why i did it, i guess? Yea i blew two-Bills getting high, fifty on liqure, and ate like a pig! Well let's admit it...It was my last-time; like it always is, and i didn't expect things to get past two, or, i didn't expect to spend more than forty on Crack; as is always the case with drug-addits. But i knew with a sure-job comming-up for six-hundred__before months end__probably a finished job by that time__paied for, my bills actually would still get handled in time, the electrics would even be paied nearly back to Zero, and i could still go-on scratching, crawling and trying to survive; like all the rest of us. But it was a stupid game to play, that i know even as i think about getting Spaced right now, and have more than enough cash-on-hand to do-it, never, no not ever again, will i fall victum to The Pipe. I will keep every other vice i have Baby, if that's what it takes. But the-pipe...
"Forget about it !!"
But becides all this, there might be an alterier reason all this is happening, has happened, and hopefully will not need not continue to occure in my fucture life. It's not easy being a god. Oh it;s easy to convince other people i am, or at least that this is the light Establishment casts me in. But when it comes to convincing Me, well that's quite a differant story. So i guess in a way, i sometimes feel a need to get myself so far-deep into a hole, and, only when i manage to actually get-out, do i accept that i might be in-the-least, somewhat of an extra'oradanry indivigual. Why i've had to prove it to myself so-meny times, goodness-knows..? In-fact when i was imprisioned by the Canadian Government in a Fedreal Instution, baiscly for drugs, i turned-out to be in the Ten-present catagory of people who do-not reoffend durring their Parole. And of course for those whom are reading The Ministers web-page, and think i must be crazy for insisting i will be-come Prime-Minister of my nation one day, when in fact i have been put-away in a Fedreal Instution__there'fore i can legaly never now become the leader of This Canada...Well excuss me. But you might forget. Those laws were wirten for men, not the god's.
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