Daddy Must Love ME

I don't know why life has to be so FucKing-hard~all the ShiT & abuse i must constantly go-through...
I'm a good person, i have a solid head on my sholders, i have gained the right to respect/the simple fact that i could__should i wish, have others blow theCRAP-out-a-this-place, in my name, and that i don't__proves i'm a worthy human-being!
So why is it so often those closest to me, those who know my power & how WONDERIOUS/it-be...Why are they always constently to test my paitence!!



You see: i can't believe my roomie doesn't realize there's no reason i should have to pay his rent every month, bc, he can't seem to come-up with the cash when he's supposed to?
But then i can't believe he never said: "He's Sorry", for the last-time he did this, and, i got the snot beat-out-of-me by the landlord/my Boss; when i didn't have the funds to cover the boy! Maybe it's just me of course, but, doesn't everybody desurve a certian ammount of respect!!



The-Boy knows he lives with Christ, however. He even asked me the other day: "Why do i want to be Jesus?" So could he possibuly think that with his comming-in all weekend with pizza's & the-like that: i didn't realize he got his pay on the pay-date it was supposed to come-in!! Wehn he told me: He would go to the bank in a few minuits, or, on other occaisions__when he got home from work my money would be with him...somehow now i'm expected to believe all this money he was spending & all the beer, well no that's not because i should have any reason to expect that as he said: I was going to get my money in a timly order and in full?



Maybe of course, and i say just MAYBE...when people think their pulling the woll over my eyes, it's not because they can't understand i non-the-less see their deciet, but, they think: "If they can play with me this/way & get away with it, well maybe that makes them some'how as powerful as a God, and that there'fore they have no reason to expect ever that i might take it to mind i must get even?



And so it is this & things like these: that make it so easy for me to ponder leaving The Christian Faith. Other than my selfish need to earn a living & survive, Christianity has seldom offered me anything i am desurving of. Even in becomming "it's very God", has not been enough for those around me__to show me the respect i well by now desurve. To that all i can say is: When i do take that final-step, and cross the threshold of into Islam & hopefully the hearts & soles of those i hope to be my Brothers and Sisters...well it better-be i'm not all that disturbed with You CHRISTIAN, bc, I just might forget to inform my new-love & The Muslim Faith/PEOPLE's>>>
"Really I'm Not A Radical" and i wouldn't want anyont to take revenge for/Me Ay?

But Alas: i know at least my Holy, Beloved-Father & The One i trust most to bring me down from that cross__so the whole of this earth soon will know of my existance...i know that He must love me, and, even in times when i don't love myself, bc, on every ocaision when my ass should be in the fire, somehow He always manages to pull it out. And, i have a new contract which covers twice what that Little ShiT is supposed to pay in both rent & the great/Honor of actually knowing/being within my presents!



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